In less than half a year

In less than half a year, I probably learned more than I expected I will. And knowing that I have such a conyo bruh, I’ll try to be as conyo as him- to annoy all of you. HAHAHAHA.

I told myself I’d make this (kind of) a formal post. But the me that’s just so eager to tell you stories isn’t like that. So here’s me being me and hi

I’d rather tell you everyday details in this- well fine, not everything. The best in a day, I guess. And these are mostly one-liners. Ehe ehe. And this, my friends, is exactly the reason why I write the things that happen to me down on my journal. I’d write down the generic ones here. WOW GENERIC HAHAH – like, the things that we can all relate to. (Or most of us, forgive me).

Everyone, my first semester as a 3rd year BA Area Studies student:

0811: LSS ako sa “First day of school dapat cool na cool.”

^ Did that make sense to you? Or affect your lives in any way? Had it not, sorry, but that might just be the exact same things you’ll get to see until the end of this post. 😛

0812: “Anong kotse ang nagga-grant ng wishes?” “Lambor-Genie” (Alejandro, 2014)

0813: Sa isang store sa SM North –

Person1: (to salesman) Balikan ko nalang.

Person2: (to person1) Buti pa sila, babalikan mo.

Person1: Di naman kita iiwan eh.

0814: Me to Joey: Gusto mo ba ligawan kita? (Namura lang ako HAHAHAHAH)

0815: First PE (Badminton) class. AKALA NAMIN ORIENTATION HAHAHA may laro na pala. “Kayo ba? Bagay kayong couple.” (Buenaobra, 2014)

0816: (It would be pretty fun if I included my weekends here, too)

“I’ll change your wrongs to joy, your mourning into dancing.” 🙂 – Lord

0817: “You are amazing. And you are loved.” (Flancia Family) HEHE sweet 4evs ❤

0818: “Yung gagawin mo ang lahat para sa isang tao ay napaka-makasarili dahil hindi MO kaya na wala siya.” (Legaspi, 2014)

0819: Decameron > Decawala (Histo102 jokes HAHA) | May panda daw ba sa Po River?
Ito rin yung… pauwi ako. Tapos, madulas, kasi maputik. Tapos nadulas ako sa putik. Para akong baboy. Na gumulong. Sa putik. WOW. HAHAHAHA.

0820: Tatlong araw nang walang hashbrown sa Mcdo UN, at Mcdo P. Faura.

0821: The day is as dull as the life of a wall that is as white as a mothball.

0822: Yehey for new friends and new partners! (Thanks to Badminton doubles, ehe ehe)

0823: We never lose the connections we have with the friends who chose to pursue the path that they’d rather have (and want, actually). Happy birthday (celebration), Jane!

0824: No change in how we compromise after fights, love. No change.

0825: National Heroes Day. I was my own hero when I decided to sleep all day. Wow.

0826: (suspended)

0827: “Sabi nga nila, ‘pag mahal mo talaga, kailangan handa mong pakawalan.” (Betan, 2014) And this, I never understood until months later.

0828: Wala akong tapang na humindi sa mga bagay na ayaw kong gawin.

0829: #SecondBatchForever (sa service papuntang Courtzone) HAHA and I will forever be thankful for (and to) my secondbatchforever friends. Ehe ehe.

0830: Watched Rak of Aegis. At naalala lahat ng kantang walang tigil kong kinakanta sa videoke. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. ❤

0831: Tulog forever.

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0901: Ber month na. Malamig na ang panahon. Mararamdaman ko na lang, nanlalamig ka na rin pala. Nakasalubong ko yung crush ko nung araw na ‘to na may chocolate ako sa ngipin. Minsan nakakahiya talaga.

0902: You either love Tuesdays. Or you stick to KFC for lunch.

0903: Sri Lanka; Sri Jackfruit
TITI: Tokyo Institute of Technology, Inc. (BAKIT GANITO YUNG FRIENDS KO HAHA)
Had dinner with someone na akala ko eh may grudge ako. And thanks to that dinner, we got closer. Here’s to the HS bff and the College bff. HEHEHE.

0904: Delays.

0905: “Hindi pwedeng sa isang tao lang lahat ang mundo.” (Boncan, 2014)
Badminton; ALEX, PUSO!

0906: Watched War is A Tender Thing (sings to the tune of Love is an Open Door)

0907:

0908: “Women are of feelings, most of the time, and not of analyzing. It’s human nature. Woman nature.” (Devora, 2014)

0909:

Karl: Asan si Ken?
Me: Di ko alam.
Karl: Loko imposibleng ‘di mo alam.

Went to Rob Magnolia (for the first time, hehe). Sobrang tuwang tuwa ako sa fountain na hindi ko alam bakit hindi naappreciate ng kasama ko. (Baka nasa kasama. Aguyy).

0910: Judged the Devstud freshies sa kanta-kanta nila sa NSTP. Probably one of the most talented blocks I’ve ever heard. HEHE. Thank you, Sir Ponsaran!

0911: We pray for souls that died innocent.
Went out with friends. Happy birthday (celebration), Gab!

0912: “Sinong hahalili sa kanya?” “Si Katrina!”
“NAGPARAYA TAYO PAREHO. ANYARE?” #BadmintonHugots “Masaya bang magkandarapa tapos talo pa rin?” / Happy birthday, Josh!

(next few days, nothing happened, tas suspended pa HAHA)

0917: “Dahil lang don, ‘di ko sya pwedeng gamitin? Eh kung useful naman siya?”

0918: “Paano darating yung tamang oras kung hindi mo ginagawa yung dapat mong gawin?” (Ang, 2014)

0919: #MarioPH Goodbye, Poland experience.

0920: Had a date with the best dad ever. Ehe ehe.

0921: Natuto na’kong umuwi via MRT-jeep. Ang mundo ay isang malaking EDSAPasayRotonda. Ang gulo. Ang sikip. Ang daming kaagaw. Stress. Hassle. Pagod.

0922: May limitations yung pasensya ko.

0923: Nakipagkita kay Camille nung hapon, and tinakas niya ‘ko papasok ng AdU. I saw one of the my best mentors (hehe, hi Sir Zap) and of course, one of the best barkadas ever. I never knew surprises could be that… lovely; could feel that kind of home-y. That day, I realized that I have not, and will not, ever let go of my first love: AB Communications. For the love of writing. For the love of writing, indeed.

0924: “Your choices become my choices. And they affect me more than they do you.”

0925: “Aksaya. Pero ang saya.”

0926: On badminton blues; “Habulin mo [shuttlecock] kahit feel mo ‘di mo kaya kasi eventually, mahahabol mo din.” Wow, sure okay. HAHAHA.

0927: Had dinner at Brazo with one of the best bunch of friends ever! #tropa

0928: YES! (Moderated with the forever partner hehe) “AKen ka nalang?” – Jolo; I have the best church friends in the world – the sweetest, the most-inspiring.

0929: Do not make them angry or they will eat you.

0930: Visits to the embassies of Switzerland and Norway. Swissue + Swiss water + Sparks
Happy birthday (celebration), Cath & Ahki! #poorgurls #competitivespirit

1001: “Who are you to judge someone else’s forever?” Nagkainitan ng ulo dahil “Wala yan sa plano ko.” ASUS YSEL. HAHAHA. Exam sa PolSci, woohoo gg. Checking of papers, multiple choice; C as in C-ro. HAY FUNNY.

1002: Sacrifice; you give up something valuable for something [more] valuable. And that is the risk.

1003: “Kayong dalawa, ‘di kayo pwedeng maglaban.” Love you, Sir Aparato!

1004: Ginising ako ng tatay ko sa napakasarap kong tulog para tanungin ako if 1) Gusto ko ba ng atis, and 2) Nakamove on na daw ba ‘ko? HAHAHAHAHAH

1005: Serenitea x burgis lyf

1006: My favorite family went to our home this day. Hihi.

1007:

Echo: Anong pagkain ang marami sa Buckingham Palace?
Me: Ham?
Echo: Hindi, chicken.
Me: *confused*
Echo: *Makes chicken sounds* (bok bok bok [buck buck buck])

1008: “Tignan niyo si Joey. May pasa. Sa puso.” Love you, Manix Abrera! HIHIHI.

1009: “Mali ba na ginamit ko yung puso ko [sa essay]?!” “OO! MALING MALI.” HAY HAHA

1010: Animal cruelty HAHAHA; Enjoyed Badminton na 6 na diredirechong laro ang pinagawa sakin ni Sir na kahit naga-umpire ako eh pinatigil ako para paglaruin. #extreme HAHAHAHA. asperwrittenonjournal; Opened lives up with Renzo!! QT hihi; I am an open book, and this could be a good thing.

1011: #honorarydevstud

1013: “A long sleep can cure your heartache.” (Devora, 2014)

1014: Masyado na tayong kilala ng mundo.
Sometimes, the closure we’re waiting for is the truth we’ve known all along. #iyaknightahead

1015: “We’re too young to be this sad.”
“I did not see the sun set in the sky. But I did see it set in your eyes.”

1016: Sunkist na minion!!!!!!!
“Hi batchmate” (Guiyab)

1017: Charing. HAHAHAHchos. Practicon. Home. In my sense.

1018: “Napawi yung saya ko. Ako na lang pala yung kailangan mag-adjust dito.”

1019: SimBarkadahan Day 1; “Ang galing. Magbabarkada po talaga kayo?” 🙂 Love you, guys!

1022: We thank friends for treating us on our first times!

1023: Signed up for People’s Initiative to Abolish Pork Barrel. oink oinkk

1024: Nabagsakan ng aircon sa service sa badminton. HAHAHAHAH. Tas akala nila hindi masakit. Ulels guys HAHAHA. Was supposed to watch Biogyugan for the first time. #EhAlaEh Sadnu HUHUHUHUHU “Psst psst.”

1026: Love that is free. Woops.

1027: “A for Alejandro. D for Dankarl. Ded. Dyoey.” Literal na pinilit.
Expectations lead to frustrations. That lead to aggression.
Oplan #BawalKiliginSiYsel
Was with Kris at Rob. The love we have for our bestfriends x soulmates is def forever. Seeing you gave me the feeling of being home. Hehehe.

1028: Effort for HumST20 report: 10/10

1029: 570 #AngPagbabalik Nakakamiss. Here’s to mami, beer, and videoke! Cheers, loves.

1030: Nagreport kahit wala si Ma’am. Sadnu.

1031: Went to school in costume (angel headband lang HAAHAHAH) Partners with Cesca. Surprised when Karl and Jed went to school in full costume, too. HAHAHA. #friendstalaga

1103: “Ang pagibig, kailanman, ay hindi pwedeng ipilit.” #HumReportHugots

1104: Binigyan ako ni Jed ng bandaid, “Oh, para sa puso mo.” WAHT?! =)) Went to Paco Park with friends. WOOHOO real fun. Oh and yes, gave out food to the people in the streets. All for Gail’s birthday advocacies. Hihi

1105: Gave people Kitkat (with Women Empowerment notes) for Gail’s advocacies part 3 😉

1106:

“Bakit pa ba kasi kayo umiinom? Di naman mawawala problema nyo?”
“Para kung masira man ang buhay namin, hindi na kayo ang dahilan. Hindi na ikaw.”

1107: Walang shuttle sa PE so we kinda had to figure out how to go to Courtzone HAHAHAHAHermg. Ay ay ay ay ay “pssst” HAHHAHA, galawang ysel itu. Fun day fun day it was.

1108: Naiwan akong magisa sa bahay. Tinanong ako ng friend ko, “So anong horror movies na napanood mo?” HAHAHAHAHAAHHlels.

1110: Tip; Kung magsa-Psych10 ka at si Ma’am Ramiro ang prof, pagagawin niya kayo ng lovelife video. Ngayon, kung wala ka namang lovelife, hanap ka ng friend mo na willing maging lovelife mo for one day. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Hi, Gene 😉

1111: Late ako. For the first time. Ever.

1112: Wall of Martyrs – “Andun si Ysel.” WOW, FRIENDS. HAHAAHAHAH.

1113: NO SLEEP, JUST ARAL. heheheh.

1114: Eh kamusta naman yung ‘di nga ako natulog, perfect ko naman exam. HAHAHAHA k

Ken: (abt Renzo) Sya nga sumasalo ng mga mali ko eh! Galing.
Renzo: (to me) Ikaw, sumasalo ka rin ba?

HAHAHAHAHayosnamanoh.

PE Tambays with Ken Miko Renzo are really fun. We even talked about me writing a eulogy for myself. Guys sobrang narci ko na ba HAHAHAHAHA. Tapos, kesho lahat nga naman daw ng songs eh favorite ko, haha guyspls. And omg, tumugtog yung So Close ta’s mukha akong nagiimagine kahit hindi. #umaasaforever H3h3 joke lang. Wala lang. Days like this, hehe. Actually something I miss now that the sem’s done.

1119: araw na minura ni Gail sarili niya tas tawang tawa kami kasi sarili nalang niya yung close niya HAHAHAHAHAHAHAjk. Ikabubuti raw ng buhay ko yung mangyayari sakin pag nagpunta ako sa office ni Dad. Ayun, vinaccine. Ang sakit. HAHAHAHAHA k

1120: “The self that we know cannot be contained in the mind.”

1121: “It is worse to be denied than to be rejected.” ChicBoy with the two lovies. Ehe ehe. Choth. Come Back to Me feelz

1124: “Wala silang masyadong mabibigay. Pero bigay sila ng bigay.”
“Too whom much is given, much is expected.”

1126: PE Finals! #GoKenZo! ❤ #fangirl “Pwede pong vogue?” Happy birthday, Jed!
Oops, the things written on my journal tells a lot about… him. HA. HA. HA. #aralbagolandi

1127: “Bakit hindi tayo makamove-on? Ano bang kulang?” (Ang, 2014)
I have a friend who actually cried ’cause of Ed Sheeran tickets. Loves, never underestimate the power of a fangirl love. HAHAHAHAHA.

1128: “Musta ka?” HAHAHAHAHAHAHomg.
Flaming Wings’ WIcked Oreos are the best, I swear. HUHU. So, I met up with a new friend (who, apparently, knew me since I was in highschool. And there I was, clueless of who she was). It was fun. Seriously, I have a thing with opening up to new people. And I like it.

1130: Mass then Toptea with the bunch. *insert so many hearts here*

So are your eyes sore from all the reading? HAHAHA, here’s a treat. 😉 Thanks to my acads, I haven’t written any detailed entry on almost all my December pages. And that sucks. SOBRANG SIPAG KO BA. HAHAHAHA.

1202: I hope you don’t blame me for having grudges.

1203: “HEY BABY. PWEDE KA BANG IUWI?” HAHAHA.
“Kung Asian Tiger ka, paano ka magiging lion?” (Magpayo, 2014)
“Pag bumagsak ba ‘ko, may pagasa pa ‘ko…. sayo?” HAHAHAHA.

1204: Masikip daw. So that’s how it feels to lose not only the love we knew, but the bestfriend we had.
Guys, nagskip ng beat yung heart ko. Ehe ehe
I bumped into one of my favorite AdU professors, Sir Jun! And I remembered how happy I was when I gave him a ponkan on the last day of classes of my first semester in Adamson. “Sir, a ponkan a day keeps the badtrip away.” *insert kilig face here*

< HELLO SA PERIOD NA ‘TO NA PURO PAPERS HAAHAHAHA BYE >

1212: Sarah in the morning. (And her friend, May, who asked me, “Lahat kayo magkakapatid, lalaki?”) B3H ANO HHAHAHAAA MUKHA NAKONG LALAKE NGAYON? HAHAHA.
Heard their love story and it was an 80-20 emotional percentage thing. *hehe*

1213: Claps for the UP Manila Chorale. Love you, friends HEHEh3

1215: My last exam for this semester. (The same subject I got an uno sa second exam) PERO KUNG ANONG KINA-UNO NUNG 2ND EXAM KO, SYANG KINA-GG NETONG HULI HAHAHA MODIFIED TRUE OR FALSE WALA NI ISANG TRUE HAHA IYAK.
Ate at Mcdo and went to Rob with Ken and Gail. Ahayy. So fun fun fun.

For the first time, I have learned to actually suppress my feelings. So I told you my feet hurt when you asked me why I was crying. The truth is, was, you still felt like home. And there were a lot more words worth years I wanted to tell you. But I couldn’t. And I knew I probably shouldn’t. So I went home with eyes that looked like punching bags. And there was nothing you could do. ‘Cause there was nothing you knew. Anymore.

1216: By lunchtime, I texted Roma asking where she was. And kind of asked her to come with me. And she did. H3h3. Stories worth months that felt like years were told. Tears that were piled up were freed. It was an overwhelming day for me. For both of us. You haven’t changed. Both of us probably never won’t. And that’s just fine fine fine.

1217: Simplicity is Beauty. And it was really funny, if someone ever discovers what I’m saying here.
Thank you, Renzo (na sabi nasa CAS na sya tas nasa Espanya pa siya HAHA) for lunch ehe ehe.
And Cheska, ’cause your home is my home. Your cookies, mine. And our standards will forever be the same. KAYA HINDI TAYO MAGKAKABOYPREN. #noboyfriend #justkarma HAHA
Went to Makati, near Bet’s house, to get Mom’s dress. And walking along that street (yung perpendicular sa street nila Bet) felt so highschool-y. I actually couldn’t help but feel mushy. And sad.
And that was my last day in Manila. (For myself).

This is how my first semester ended. Well I did skip the parts where I kept on ranting about how I hated the suspensions. Because I really did.

In less than half a year, I admit that I have finally gotten used to the travel to and from Bicutan. It had already felt like home. I had no more complains. I have gotten used to our room being filled with darkness at night, and hello me still a scaredy-cat (now emphasized because of a few legends from my HS20 class).

Every travel to Manila was precious. It wasn’t like how it was before. It costs about P60, one way. And that isn’t a small fare. Every coming home felt great. Every step inside our room felt overwhelming. Relaxing. Knowing I am already out of the long lines of shuttles/vans and out of the busy streets and am already in the small but cozy room felt more of a comfort.

But it isn’t all good. Because that’s what I miss about living in Manila. “Oy san ka? Bahay lang ako. Tara dito.” And tada, andun na yung friends ko. Well here, obviously, it’s not like that. Para bang, nung lumipat ako, eh I kinda took a part of them away, too. Our home back in Manila was indeed a part of all of us. And to have that part taken away from us, I KNOW THIS SOUNDS PRETTY MAARTE HAHA, is just sad. And sad isn’t even the word I’m thinking of.

In less than half a year, I learned that I am an open book, and I’d rather really have it that way. Apparently, I met quite a few friends with whom I had already shared chapters of my life on the first day. First hour, actually. And I’m happy with that. I didn’t want to, anymore, when I thought that it was a crazy idea to actually tell people your stories when you meet them for the first time. But I got to defy that and prove that it wasn’t. Because even up to now, I still tell them, especially one, stories. And it’s really fun. It’s like, having someone understand you when you’ve known each other for just two months, more or less. Ewan ko. It did give me the feeling that I’d keep you for a long time. Longer than I probably thought I will when I first met you. And I’m grateful for that.

In less than half a year, I learned that when we moved houses, it was always a perfect sight to see my parents come home. To appreciate their presence was something I was able to do when we were already in separate rooms. And went home at different times. And ate different food when we weren’t all home.

In less than half a year, NALAMAN KONG KAYA KO NAMAN PALANG MAKA-UNO NG EXAMS. HAHAHAHAHA. Pero hindi naman ko tamad. Mahirap lang talaga, kaya ‘di ako laging nakaka-uno. AT NGAYON, ALAM KO NA YUNG SAYA NG MAKA-UNO KAHIT SA EXAM LANG. HAHAHAHAHA. IYAK.

In less than half a year, I spent most of my time with friends (Hi, team B kahit hindi talaga yan yung dapat na pangalan natin). And every moment spent with them is a moment I treasure, forever and ever. HAHAHAHA *cue: I Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing* I also learned, NO, proved to myself, that falling in love with friends in our inner circle was normal, and not a mistake. It’s a risk, though, but never a mistake.

In less than half a year, narealize ko na kaya naman pala nating magpakawala ng isang bagay na hindi para satin. HAHA. But to be honest, I’m happy I learned it the hard way. Yun lang. Yun nalang. That Tuesday you told me all about it, I knew I was happy for you. But not for me. Until two weeks later. I still miss you, of course. But I’m happy for you. And that’s one thing.

In less than half a year, narealize ko na after a long time, eh masarap pa rin pala talagang kiligin. Lalo ‘pag first time ulit. Pero pls, oplan bawal kiligin si ysel ulit tayo. AHAHAHA.

In less than half a year, I proved to myself na posibleng maging friends pa rin kayo even after some sort of break up, mejo mahirap nga lang. Yes. Haha, so thank you. Thank you.

In less than half a year, I knew that I had a little bit longer. But you had ways to go. 

And in less than half a year, I knew I was different. And so we thank the people who either make or break us. Because either way, we become stronger. Macho-er. Like gym people. Sa KFC.

But then again, I beg you. Not you, but the other you.
Show me your scars. Tell me your stories.
You already have mine.
What’s yours?

 

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