Monthly Archives: June 2014

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The thing about love is… charot. May narealize kasi ako kanina. Hahaha. Bumili kasi akong shampoo. Palmolive naturals na pink. But I hated that. I don’t know why, and I probably still do. Pero yun yung binili ko. Kasi at some point, I have the feeling that I love it. How it makes my hair smooth and fragrant. And that’s when I realized na maybe you need to hate something to know that you really love it. And maybe that’s why we’re in this love-hate relationship..

 

So I guess lots of things happened already since I last posted here. And I don’t really know where to start.

 

But I probably will on June 9.

0609. Tinreat ako ni Jad ng lunch. KFC Cheese Chicken ❤ Hahahahaha feeling ko forever favorite ko na yun. Went to Lord’s for Rehearsals and omg for the first time, went to Justin’s. YEEEEHEEEES. Nagluto si Kent ng corned beef. Tas yun, tinakot lang nila ako dun kay Caring at yung bata na piano and whatso. Kainis hahahaha. #funday

 

0610. My journal says it was a boring day.

 

0611. Nagsend si Patty ng link that says something about break-ups ata. Omg, I forgot. Basta it was something sad and I had to deal with it with so much strength. Nag-duty and nagdepartment hopping kasi andaming food sa iba’t ibang department =)) Haahahahachos. Nagluto kami ni Kuya pero swear walang nangyari.

 

0612. Holiday. Independence Day kahit hindi ramdam ng karamihan ang kalayaan. Nagligpit ng gamit and was sad because really.. how do you let go of your 7-year home 😥 Went to Lord’s for rehearsals. Ay omg ito yung bigla lang akong pinaakyat sa stage tas moderator pala ako. Dabest talaga magsurprise si Lord mehehe ❤ Was with Jek tas yung joke na how did the boy drop his ice cream.. erglrglr. :)) Tas omg ito yung may shoot ng Mirabella tas antagal kasi sumigaw ako HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA #fail Kumain ng pansit with the Tropaboys – Bench. Awtsuuuuu.

 

0613. Judgment Day. Pero hanggang ngayon wala pang judgment. Went to Lord’s with the whole family which really felt good kasi antagal nang hindi since busy sila sa work. But this day.. yes ❤ ❤ Then after GA, we ate at Shrimp Bucket for dinner, which was a birthday celebration for Kuya and Tito Nath. 😀

 

0614. Watched When in Rome nung umaga. #ouchie HAHAHA chos. “I understand loving somebody and them not loving you back.” Ito yung andaming jokes ni Jolo. HAHAHA yung The Nemo =)) Tas yung inaasar ako ni Erin na, “Why do you say ‘Keep the fire burning’ three times?” =)) Oh and then this was the night that we had Korean dinner with Dad’s (in God’s will soon-to-be clients. Busog night to swear HAHA yesssss

 

0615 KUYA’S BIRTHDAY. AND RJ’S BIRTHDAY. NagMcdo breakfast. Then went to Anointing. Nainis kay ano HAHAHA jkjkjkjk, kainszz. Then went to MoA with the family to celebrate the birthdays and to have a get-together with Tito Gerald. Ito yung nagperiswil kami ni Sofie and LJ with our new friend, Clair (na Chinese and so cute) tas ako ung pinakamatanda pero ako yung mangiyakngiyak HAHAHA ermg. Then went to mass sa Don Bosco and had desserts sa Amici with RJ LJ and Tito Gerald. Really #funfamilyday

 

DABEST YUNG HASHTAGS KO PLEASE

 

0616 Wala. Ginala ko lang si Eli sa UP :)) HEHEHEHEHEHEH

 

0617 Nagpamanicure pero nainis lang ako sa dami ng bubbles kaya tinanggal ko din. Ugh. Naglunch alone sa Keps (where we once had breakfast, love) then straight to LF. Nagpa-ID at binully sa media =)) HAHHA tas nung gabi.. nanood ng Oro Plata Mata. And it was so disturbing but so classically outstanding. NUXXXXX.

 

0618 Nanood ng Glee at naiyak sa Wide Awake nila. Nagligpit ng gamit and I made ayos my gamit for Davao already. Dumating si Cams and Kenet (padespedida sa bahay) ANG PAYAT NI KENET HUHU tas dumating din si Kris hihi. Nagdinner kami. Nag-mami, nag-apples at nagNutella fight kainis hahahahaha. Ayun ❤ ❤

 

0619. “Home doesn’t have to be yours to be called home.” Treated myself to Mcdo breakfast at napaemote dahil aalis na talaga kami. Ayun Tas pag uwi ko, pumatay ako ng ipis gamit alcohol YEEES left the house by 5:30 (kasi di ako dun natulog) and this time left really means left. I forgot to say goodbye to the house. And honestly it really hurts. Ang dami ko naman din kasing memories sa bahay na yun eh. </3 Anyyy, ayun rehearsals. TWIX! Hihi tas slept over kina Ate V with Bench na vain hehehehee

 

0620 flight to Davao. Hinatid ni Tito B sa airport. Sobrang siksikan namin pls hihi cute namen :)) “May sabon ba sa Cinnabon?” =)) Pagdating sa Davao, rehearse. Hihi tas kumain kami nila Ate V at Ate Jeni kasi gutom na kami tas nag-GMall at nasamin pala yung mga susi yesssss HAHA nagenjoy sa grocery kahit ginawa akong tagatulak tas sila pa yung napagod HEEHHEHEE umattend ng GA sa Davao at napagtantong si Lord kaya kang patawarin without asking you to promise to change and that is how merciful He is. ❤ Tas ito din yung si Lloyd slowmo sa elevator at sana pag one day nabasa ko to I’d still remember why it was so funny

 

0621 ABLAAAAAAAZE!!!!! Pagoda per super-duper worth it ❤ ❤ ❤ Saya nung concert ehhh. #MandatorycarrymeinDavaophotowithJek dabest talaga hashtags ko HAHA Dinner at Toryano’s 🙂 yeheees more manok more saya

 

0622 Nagikot. Bumili ng suha. ❤ Nastress kakatawa ermg haha lunch @ Mcdo #potsuuuuu HAHAHA nagtunnel pero di naman pumasok HAHA Nihao AAAHAHHA nagPeople’s Park at nagpictorial “GET ON THE LEAF” hehehehe p39 na Chicken for dinner tas yung talent nanaman ni Kent hahaha. Plane. Yessssss backinManila tas yun, dito na’ko sa bagong bahay dumirecho. Awtsuuuu

 

0623 My best day during vacation so far. >J< ❤

 

 

0624 and 0625 are normal days.

 

Feeling ko amboring neto pero actually hindi HAHAHAH yey me bye you

I’m Sorry You’re Not The One

I can hear you.

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I know this is going to be hard for you to understand, but you are not the one for me. If you had told me three years ago that I’d be saying this now I’d have stared at you blankly and told you how impossible that was because when we first started dating my heart would jump at your text, we would talk all night long about our plans for the future together, and I couldn’t get enough of you. Now our conversations exhaust me to the point where I just give up, preferring not to talk in circles all night about things we’ve discussed to death a million times.

It hurts me to do this because I’ve been on your side before, watching helplessly as someone told me that our relationship wouldn’t survive to the next stage. I know right now you don’t believe that this pain will ever…

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I remember telling you how the first 5 days of my June went. But hey, it doesn’t stop there, and I’m really really really happy!! I cannot contain this happiness, and it’s just 10:46 on a Saturday morning (jumped out of bed… #Magic)

 

I’m going to start with the good part of 0605. Maybe I was a little caught up on the Taylor Swift line, but things did get better that night. Not the better the I wanted it to be for a month.. months, a year now. But a better-kind of better that we both deserve, probably.

 

June 6

Friday. I was late for duty because I do not know.. HAHAHA, teka, tataglishin ko ‘to sa saya ko :)) Okay, so late ako for some reason na I do not remember. Or I do. =)) Nagkita kami ni Richard sa OCS. Tapos nagpasama sya sa napakatagong IMS sa PGH, at nag-artehan lang kami dun. Taking about hospital food and all HAHAHA, tas kinausap sina Sir dun sa IMS. Ang kulit ko daw… HAHAH MAY PENALTY BA?! Haha. Then, by lunch time, di ako naglunch. HAHAHA, I sat sa may OCS to ask my friends’ questions. Kasi sila nga, nasa probinsya, ako nasa Manila. Haha, so this day, June 6, sawang-sawa sakin si Kuya Glen =)) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA sorry =)) By 1:00, nagpunta ako OSS para may mga ayusin ❤ Then 1:30 umakyat. Tas bumaba. Andun na mga profs. The 3-day conference was over. Then, nagkita kami nina Jethro and Gab ❤ Punta silang Taylor Swift.. joke. Kasi naka-red sila HAHAH WEEEEH, then super sweet ni Maam Caringal, she ordered pizza for us, kasi nga birthday ko daw and they weren’t here nung birthday ko. GDJkaskdjhasdjshdasifos WHAAAAAAAT!?? :”> Hehehe, kinilig ako plssss ❤ So.. we ate, and they kept on laughing grabe :(( Haha ang cute nila. So this day, I celebrated my birthday with Maam Sha, of course Ate Juls and Ate Mary, Sir Ponsi, Sir Chester, Sir Allan, Sir Carl, Sir Ong ❤ AWTSU I mean diba omggggg nakakakilig kasi HUUHUHUHUU naalala ko si Sir Ponsi, sabi, “Genevieve ano nga ibig sabihin nung STS?” Sabi ko, “Sir sino si Genevieve.” Sabi nya “Ikaw.” =)) AHHAHAHAAHAHAHAH

 

Apparently, it was a week long celebration ❤ Kaya kilig na kilig ako. That was, of course, what I thought was the end already. Kasi mula Monday nagcecelbrate na’ko eh. Advanced. Sakto. Late. Only to find out that there were more surprises.

 

And no, they’re surprises in a way that they are answered prayers.

Kuya and I were on our way to Lord’s Flock. Ate K texted me, asked me if pupunta ako, sabi ko yes, then she asked me if naka-book na ‘ko sa Davao, kasi we’ll be in Davao on June 21 for Ablaze (Lord this is my time makabawi dahil wala ako last year sa Ablaze in Manilaaaa) ❤ sabi ko no, not yet. Then ang text nya was, “God is good to those who serve Him. Just have faith.” And told me na itext sya pag answered prayer na. ❤ Then si Ate Jing, she texted me din… some matters and told me na.. okay na yung ticket ko for Davao. GUSTO KO UMIYAK SA FX. GRABE. I have been praying for this for quite some time na! And now. Answered prayer na sya!!! :”> Kinikilig ako kasi Lord, ang bilis! :”> Ayunnn, pag dating naman ni Kuya, Praise and Worship was almost at an end. We sat and listened to Sis Mik as she talked about not giving up. “The joy of the Lord remains even when all else fails.” ❤ Ay nagshare pala ako ❤ Sa sobrang saya ko HAHA, I mean, nafeel ko na kailangan at gusto ko talagang ishare kung pano dire-direchong blessings yung binigay ni Lord this week ❤ IT WAS RIGHT!!!! “THE PAIN YOU ARE FEELING TODAY CANNOT COMPARE TO THE JOY OF TOMORROW.” ❤ Tas after ko mag-share, sa likod ako dumaan, hinug ako ni Jek. “SURPRISE!” =)) Kainis. Naalala ko kasi pag tinatanong ko sya nang kelan sya dadating, his answers were always, “I’m sorry, can’t go.” O kaya, “Never,” or “Not sure,” or “I’m really sorry.” Tas may sad face pa =)) Tas tdaaaa hahaha “Were you surprised?” =)) HAHAHAHA Tas yun nagjoke lang ng nagjoke si Jolo =)) Grade 6, pati gupit ni Shoti haha no ba so it was  really fun night ❤ Tas naglakad kami nila Shoti and Justin, sabay kami ni Justin and talked about med stuff yeheees ❤ Hahaha, tas nagMcdo kami. Nakakainis kasi treat nya =)) Eh pachix nga ako. So yeah, it really was a fun night.

 

Ang saya saya. Sobra. Sobraaaa. Tas kagabi, nagpray ako. May kelangan pa kasi ako gawin. Eh nakapagbukas lang ako ng FB nung.. June 5 ata. So nun ko lang nakita na June 9 na yung dapat gawin. Nagulat ako kasi: :(((( Nun ko lang nalaman. Eh June 2 pa pinost yun. So nagpray ako na bigyan ako ni Lord ng lakas and wisdom para mapaghandaan yun. Or Siya na bahala ano gagawin nya. Kanina, nalaman ko.. moved. June 13.

 

ANG BILIS. SOBRANG BILIS. GRABE. Di ko na macontain yung saya ko. Yung kilig ko. Sobrang bait ni Lord!!!! :”)

 

Tas kanina, nabasa ko nga,
Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose.”

 

I have never felt this on-fire in my life. ❤

I have a big God, friends.
We all do. 🙂

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This is how the first five days of June went.

 

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Wilfire Kick Off

I was happy. I started June right. Moderated the kick-off with Kish, Lloyd and Emman. And had a success-treat-lunch! It got me excited for Wildfire. SO. EXCITED. It’s been 3 years that I get too excited for these! For the Faith on Fire, for Ablaze (although I wasn’t there), and now for Wildfire! Oyeaahhh. ❤

 

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My family went to Lucena. Sometimes I still get confused what to use when I say my family and I went to Lucena. Should it be my family, or our family. Frustrating, really. So we woke up early, and went to Lucena. Ate hashbrowns. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH as if walang Mcdo sa Maynila.. HAHAjoke. And had lunch somewhere nice. I am so sorry for not being able to remember the name of that resto with the big tiger prawns!! Huhu sinigang na sugpo was so delicious. And their crispy pata. And their chicken. It was a good lunch. And hey, it was kind of an early-birthday celebration! So yehey for me and Lucena food. It was amazing, though. I mean the travel. I was in the back seat. Like the back-back seat. I slept on the way there and on the way home. It’s the best thing I can do. I read The Kite Runner too! And just figured out that day that Hassan died. And a lot of other things happened in that amazing book. HUHU, really. So, on the way to Lucena, I remembered our first-year-in-UP field trip. ‘Cause we went to Lucena that day, and stayed at Nawawalang Paraiso. That memory didn’t sting. Maybe because it didn’t have you in it yet, love. Not yet. That night, I finished The KiteRunner. I cried. I am so sorry. HUHU but I cried. I’m not apologizing because I cried. I am apologizing to myself because since May 10, all I did was cry every night. And that night, the night when I finished The Kite Runner, I cried harder. I cried harder because Amir did what he had to do to make up for every thing he’s ever done. For every life lost. OMG ayoko na umiyak. “For you a thousand times over.”

 

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I woke up with puffy eyes because I cried. HAHA, I went to duty. So.. as I was about to go down to bring something to OCS, I saw Jethro. So we went down together. HAHA, and went up to the department again. Then Gab texted me, asked me if I was in school. I got too excited so I just called him. So the three of us bought food from KFC, take-out, ate at the department. Laughed about lots of things, and I almost cried, too. Again. Since that day, about a month ago, I have tendencies to cry even when the weather was too hot. I mean, that’s annoying. HAHAH. Jethro had Oreos!! Double stuff! HAHA, and he had to ask something from UPD, so we called up, and it was so funny kasi *nagtaglish nako HAHA* nagtatawanan kami habang wala pang sumasagot. Eh biglang may sumagot, and we were still laughing. It was too funny! Then by 1:30 or 2, they had to leave. Sir Ong had to go down, too. And I asked him, “Sir, iiwan mo na’ko?” He told me, “Panandalian lang. Babalik ako.” You know, jokes that hit you? Yeah, that kind. This day, I thought.. maybe I was grieving too much. Yeah, maybe I was. By 4, or 3:30, he called us up. I mean, Sir Ong did. And asked us if we wanted something from Mcdo. His treat. Because it was my birthday the next day. KINILIG AKO HAHAHAHAHA CHAROT ❤ I mean, yeahhh. Come onnn. Sir Ong yan eh =)) But no joke, real talk, I was really touched. It was really heartwarming. Sooo, of course, thank youu so much, Sir Ong! ❤ After duty, I went to Rob to buy and treat myself a Gtec refill. After how many months, I can finally use it. Again. It’s the same Gtec case I had when I was still in Adamson. I think. Never changed. Just the refills. Then I went home. Passed by Ibarra’s.

 

June3. It has been a year since that night. Since that perfect night. Since that night when everyone who was there were chosen people. The special ones. Funny how things change, though. I remember Jethro asking, “Bakit di kami invited?” “Kasi di pa tayo friends nun. Alam nyo namang kung friends na tayo, you were there. You. Were there.” I did not dare look at any photo of that night this day. Because the only thing I can think of was.. how can one perfect memory be so painful? Now. Now, that it’s been a year. But I kind of spit the bad shit out, I had to be happy at that memory. That my favorite people were there. (except for some HUHU) Thank you. Everyone. It was a wonderful night. Now just a perfect memory.

 

I think I cried when I passed by Ibarra’s. And Clipper. Because Ate asked me how things were with Voldemort and me. SORRY HAHAHA.

 

I slept early. Because I didn’t want to wait for my birthday. Not anymore. Not now.

 

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But I guess God never lets His children down. He woke me up at 12:57. I didn’t want to read messages yet. But I did. Everyone was still awake, so Mom Dad Eli and Kuya greeted me already. Aww. :”) Then I slept again.

 

Had the day off from duty. Went to UP, though. Met Karl sa OSS.. HAHA, he made luwas.. YES MADE LUWAS CONYO PALA HAHA from Bulacan to get his STS password, only to find out nasa phone nya pala HAHAHAHAHAomygosh AHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. But umalis sya kagad, he had lakad. HAHA stop conyo. So I stayed in OSS and Echo texted me, asking me where I was. :”> HAHAjk, told him to go there and he found me panicking because I thought I forgot what may PIN code was. Gail, texted me, too. Asking me where I was. ❤ So I waited for her for about 30 minutes AND OMG DUMAAN SILA SA OSS SHE WAS WITH BRYCE!! So Bryce and I had conversations and I forced myself to speak with accent. Then we decided we wanted to have lunch, so we called up Cesca! Asked her to go to UP so we can have lunch together! Jed was there, too! Nangitim daw sya HAHAHHA nahiya ako pls. And while we were there, we made plans!!!! Plans na sana matuloy! We laughed about a lot of things, too. Like how Jed told me, “Aagawin ko sayo si Ken. Kahit lalaki sya.” WTH HAHAHAH and a lot more things. Tanga tanga kasi namen that day. HAHA, then we separated ways with Gail and Bryce kasi nagpaphotocopy sila, habang kaming tatlo nagpuntang IMS, which was sobrang tago sa PGH HAHAH GRABE kaynis tas we waited for Cesca sa OUR.. I called Sarah, tas nilandi lang sya ni Jed =)) Kaynis. Then nung andun na si Ces, we went to Max’s and had lunch. Laughed. Told stories. Yeahhh. Good times. Good friends. (Kulang kami though) #Van8

After eating, naghiwa-hiwalay na kami. Ay omg, passed by OCS pala. Tas nilandi ni Cesca si Glen, kainis please =)) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH joke. Ayun nga. SO yeahhh. Binati pala nya ko. HAHAHAHAAHAH ano ba ysel pls

 

I went to PWU to see Mamung ❤ then I went home. Texted friends na I was home already kahit di sila nagrereply. Camille came over by 5. With party hats =)) Na Disney Princesses :)) and brownies! She even sang for me. May talent fee! Tas everytime I told her I was feeling kind of sad, puro lang sya, “BABARILIN KITA!” By 6, I think, dumating na si Selene. With pizza!! And with Deaaa!!! HAHA. Tapos napagusapan namin na hindi to surprise. Kasi matatanda na kami ❤ Awww :”) Tas si Zam! Tas si Patty! Na kakulay yung sofa namin =)) She brought cake! :”> Kilig please. Then ayun na. We were laughing na. About lots of things. We started eating. And I was actually happy Camille was there and that she met Kuf. I was just sad.. wala si Kris. I mean, kaming tatlo yun eh 😥 So yeahh. We started eating. And drinking… SPRITE =)) We started laughing about lots of things, too! Highschool memories, grabe. Sino umutot nung sleepover. Sino nagalit dahil baka buntis daw ako =)) Sino nagalit sa reply slips. Tas si Bet! *na nahiyang makiCR HAHA* then si Wey…. HAHAHAHAHAH #gets then si Bogs. She was the last to come over. HEHE :”> We took a photo! I blew… BLEW. BLOW BLOW HAHAH the cake. “WALA BA?” =)) Nung mejo apat nalang kami, things started to get serious. I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t. It was like there was a vibe that day na hindi ako pinayagang umiyak. I had to be happy. I had to be. Happy.

 

I slept happy, too. Thank you for not forgetting. That was when I realized na.. tumatanda na kami. Ay omg, first birthday ko pala to na wala si Sarah.. 😥 HUHU ayun nga. Tumatanda na kami. Surprises are already corny. Pero kami pa rin ‘to. WE never break up. Kuf will be forever Kuf. Na parang.. life is def incomplete without them. So thank you. For all the ups and the downs. Sa lahat ng tawa natin na 182324783247238472x tapos  for the fact na in every heartbreak, we stick together. We stick together. ❤ How lucky am I to have friends who are always there. ❤

 

These past days, months maybe, I know how hard it is to put up with me. Really. I can barely put up with myself! But you never left. Thank you, guys. 🙂 *not just the highschool ito. You know who are. You know who you are guys. ❤

 

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Ate J and Ate Mary bought me a cake! :”> Ahi!

 

“You called me up again just to break me. Like a promise.”

 

And this is how the first 5 days of June went.

 

Here’s to the rest of it!
And to the days I wish you’d spare. Really. No, not wish. Pra