366 Days, and counting. <3

Alam kong napaka-cliche nung kasabihan nilang balang araw, may tao kang makikilala at babaguhin nya ang buhay mo. Bu with you, no matter how cliche something is, it becomes so meaningful and accurate. And real.

November 20. (Dahil nagka-deal naman tayo na kunyare 20 ngayon dahil nawalan nanaman ako ng sense of date). It’s been a year mula noong (kahit paulit ulit na to guys) naglunch out tayo sa KFC, nakablue ka noon. Tumugtog pa nga yung We Are Never Getting Back Together at napakabitter mo, haha. At tumawag yung friends ko, and sabi mo sabihin ko wala akong kasama. Hanggang sa sinabi nilang papunta na sila’t nagpaalam ka na sakin, as if napakaforbidden nung ginagawa nating paglabas HAHA. Kinagabihan nun, nafrustrate ako. I wanted to tell myself, no, di kita gusto and all. Pero ang hirap ng ideny nun. HAHA, sooo, yes it’s been a year mula nung nafrustrate ako sa feelings ko sayo.

Thank you for everyday. I do not know how you put up with me, dahil minsan e napakabitch talaga ng attitude ko. Napakapossessive ko. Napakamapaginarte. Tas spoiled pa ko :)) Tas para bang minsan e ang hirap huminga na. But thank you, thank you. Pinaramdam mo sakin na talagang hindi ka magsasawa, kahit nakakasuya na. Haha, thank you.

Through the ups and downs, you were there. We were together. Sa lahat ng away, we fixed things. May mga away na 2 days naglalast, but that’s it. And after that, we become more careful. Alam kong karamihan ng away natin ay nagsisimula sa maliliit na bagay na.. napapalaki ko. I’m sorry. But despite everything, despite all the fights, all the harsh words, all the silent treatments, I never loved you any less. In fact, it made me love you more. It made me realize na I can’t lose you, and I have to lower my pride to get you back, para masaya na tayo. And I know hindi sa lahat ng oras, ako yung nagbababa ng pride sating dalawa, so thank you. You’re a strong man. I’m a strong woman. In different ways/aspects, pareho tayong matatag, pareho tayong malakas ang paninindigan. And with the difference, I’m glad. Nababalanse, kahit di natin ramdam yung balance. haha, weh.

Siguro ngayon, alam ko na kaya ko na talagang sabihin na hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko kung wala ka. Ang landi, ang arte pakinggan, but I know you know how much I mean it.

Maraming tao yung may ayaw. yung nagsasabing hindi ka worth it. Yung nagpipigil sakin kasi hindi daw ganto, hindi daw ganyan. But you were right. Walang kahit sinong pwedeng magdictate sakin kung anong worth mo for me. And believe me, all the love, you deserve it. Kahit sinabi mo kaninang you don’t, I choose to believe, and I’m on my way to believing that you really deserve it.

We take up too much time with each other, but I hold on to my belief. That every moment spent with you is indeed a moment spent-well. Kahit day talaga yan.

You make me feel alive. Your questions, your answers, your arguments, your justifications, your critical chuchu, your “pangangaral,” you being a brother or a father, you just being you, you bring peace to my heart. You’re the happiness that overflows. You’re the challenge God gave me, the challenge that made me realize that what we have now is better than anything that I may have asked for.

You are home to me. Your arms are towers, security. You are, just, home. Thank you for being the rainbow after the rain. Alam kong minsan, ako yung rain, tayo yung bagyo *pag nagaway na tayo* but thank you for being the rainbow. For always bringing back the colors that I long for.

Maliban kay Sunshine Dizon at Cruz, sino pa Sunshine mo? WEEEH.

You are my sunshine, Ken, my only sunshine.

NAKAKAIRITA KASI ANG KORNI. Pero wapakels ako.  Because I know how lucky I am to have you, that you choose to be with me even after all the aaushdksjdksdufsj there is.

Thank you for making me feel loved. Forgive me for saying this, pero hindi man equal yung pagmamahal na meron tayo, thank you, thank you because between us, love exists. Love exists. Different kinds of love, tho. But there is love.

And I love you.

I love you, sunshine.

No matter how many fights we still go through, nothing will change the fact that you are the home my heart will always be looking for. And I will always be here. I’ll never leave. And thank you, thank you for wanting me to stay. Thank you for saying the words that make me feel alive, that make my heart feel loved, special, parang mamon.

Jk, ayoko na. Ang korni ko na talaga.

I love you, Ken Valiant. >:D<

And you are just one of the best things I ever came across to in this world.

And I wouldn’t want to lose you, not now. Not ever. And I swear, I will never let that happen. Nothing will keep me away from you. IG-GTA ko yun, weh joke.

I am happy to be with you. And thank you for making me feel that you are, too, with me. :*

Happy Anniversary! >:D< And here’s to more years of us being together KAHIT mas marami pa yung oras na magkasama tayo kesa sa oras ng tulog natin. I think I love it that way, anyway. 🙂

PS. Alam ko, isang taon palang to. But I cling on to what you told me, “Love defies the principle of time.” I’m not in a competition. I said “I.” HAHA, weh. Alam ko wala sa tagal. But I told you, if I need to prove it to you, I can. I can, and I will. And if not, yah nothing will change. Wala pa rin yan sa tagal. One year may be short (as of now), but I am glad that I made you happy, and that I loved you, and I still will. I still will. ❤

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