Monthly Archives: November 2013

–course HAHA

And today was a fun day. I may have made a few mistakes, and i do admit that what I “did” was wrong. But I am thankful for your patience, and for your efforts to actually see them, too. I’m really happy.

And honestly, if you get to read this and you remember Bet’s question, I must admit, I was afraid at first because I was expecting a “7.” But thank you, for saying, “9.” I’m just too happy and I cannot express it in just words. But thank you, nevertheless.

Kuf! Hindi pa rin tayo nakukumpleto, but we strive, and we will strive. Toxic lang talaga. But thank you for today, for the time. Thank you for convincing me that you wanted to see us. Tho it was hard to keep it (and so I made a mistake huhu), I appreciate the thought that you wanted to.. hehe. Makukumpleto rin tayo, tiwala lang. Tayo pa ❤ Hehe. Dami ko nga kwento kanina e. See you again soon. And I cannot wait. :*

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366 Days, and counting. <3

Alam kong napaka-cliche nung kasabihan nilang balang araw, may tao kang makikilala at babaguhin nya ang buhay mo. Bu with you, no matter how cliche something is, it becomes so meaningful and accurate. And real.

November 20. (Dahil nagka-deal naman tayo na kunyare 20 ngayon dahil nawalan nanaman ako ng sense of date). It’s been a year mula noong (kahit paulit ulit na to guys) naglunch out tayo sa KFC, nakablue ka noon. Tumugtog pa nga yung We Are Never Getting Back Together at napakabitter mo, haha. At tumawag yung friends ko, and sabi mo sabihin ko wala akong kasama. Hanggang sa sinabi nilang papunta na sila’t nagpaalam ka na sakin, as if napakaforbidden nung ginagawa nating paglabas HAHA. Kinagabihan nun, nafrustrate ako. I wanted to tell myself, no, di kita gusto and all. Pero ang hirap ng ideny nun. HAHA, sooo, yes it’s been a year mula nung nafrustrate ako sa feelings ko sayo.

Thank you for everyday. I do not know how you put up with me, dahil minsan e napakabitch talaga ng attitude ko. Napakapossessive ko. Napakamapaginarte. Tas spoiled pa ko :)) Tas para bang minsan e ang hirap huminga na. But thank you, thank you. Pinaramdam mo sakin na talagang hindi ka magsasawa, kahit nakakasuya na. Haha, thank you.

Through the ups and downs, you were there. We were together. Sa lahat ng away, we fixed things. May mga away na 2 days naglalast, but that’s it. And after that, we become more careful. Alam kong karamihan ng away natin ay nagsisimula sa maliliit na bagay na.. napapalaki ko. I’m sorry. But despite everything, despite all the fights, all the harsh words, all the silent treatments, I never loved you any less. In fact, it made me love you more. It made me realize na I can’t lose you, and I have to lower my pride to get you back, para masaya na tayo. And I know hindi sa lahat ng oras, ako yung nagbababa ng pride sating dalawa, so thank you. You’re a strong man. I’m a strong woman. In different ways/aspects, pareho tayong matatag, pareho tayong malakas ang paninindigan. And with the difference, I’m glad. Nababalanse, kahit di natin ramdam yung balance. haha, weh.

Siguro ngayon, alam ko na kaya ko na talagang sabihin na hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko kung wala ka. Ang landi, ang arte pakinggan, but I know you know how much I mean it.

Maraming tao yung may ayaw. yung nagsasabing hindi ka worth it. Yung nagpipigil sakin kasi hindi daw ganto, hindi daw ganyan. But you were right. Walang kahit sinong pwedeng magdictate sakin kung anong worth mo for me. And believe me, all the love, you deserve it. Kahit sinabi mo kaninang you don’t, I choose to believe, and I’m on my way to believing that you really deserve it.

We take up too much time with each other, but I hold on to my belief. That every moment spent with you is indeed a moment spent-well. Kahit day talaga yan.

You make me feel alive. Your questions, your answers, your arguments, your justifications, your critical chuchu, your “pangangaral,” you being a brother or a father, you just being you, you bring peace to my heart. You’re the happiness that overflows. You’re the challenge God gave me, the challenge that made me realize that what we have now is better than anything that I may have asked for.

You are home to me. Your arms are towers, security. You are, just, home. Thank you for being the rainbow after the rain. Alam kong minsan, ako yung rain, tayo yung bagyo *pag nagaway na tayo* but thank you for being the rainbow. For always bringing back the colors that I long for.

Maliban kay Sunshine Dizon at Cruz, sino pa Sunshine mo? WEEEH.

You are my sunshine, Ken, my only sunshine.

NAKAKAIRITA KASI ANG KORNI. Pero wapakels ako.  Because I know how lucky I am to have you, that you choose to be with me even after all the aaushdksjdksdufsj there is.

Thank you for making me feel loved. Forgive me for saying this, pero hindi man equal yung pagmamahal na meron tayo, thank you, thank you because between us, love exists. Love exists. Different kinds of love, tho. But there is love.

And I love you.

I love you, sunshine.

No matter how many fights we still go through, nothing will change the fact that you are the home my heart will always be looking for. And I will always be here. I’ll never leave. And thank you, thank you for wanting me to stay. Thank you for saying the words that make me feel alive, that make my heart feel loved, special, parang mamon.

Jk, ayoko na. Ang korni ko na talaga.

I love you, Ken Valiant. >:D<

And you are just one of the best things I ever came across to in this world.

And I wouldn’t want to lose you, not now. Not ever. And I swear, I will never let that happen. Nothing will keep me away from you. IG-GTA ko yun, weh joke.

I am happy to be with you. And thank you for making me feel that you are, too, with me. :*

Happy Anniversary! >:D< And here’s to more years of us being together KAHIT mas marami pa yung oras na magkasama tayo kesa sa oras ng tulog natin. I think I love it that way, anyway. 🙂

PS. Alam ko, isang taon palang to. But I cling on to what you told me, “Love defies the principle of time.” I’m not in a competition. I said “I.” HAHA, weh. Alam ko wala sa tagal. But I told you, if I need to prove it to you, I can. I can, and I will. And if not, yah nothing will change. Wala pa rin yan sa tagal. One year may be short (as of now), but I am glad that I made you happy, and that I loved you, and I still will. I still will. ❤

Sana alam mo kung gano ako kasaya kahapon. Dahil sayo ♡

Matagal tagal ko ring pinaghandaan yan. Alam ko. Siguro may iba kang “Boss.” May ibang mas nakakaramdam nung kwento. 

Pero sana alam mo, kaya ko rin naman. Kaya ko.

 

Seasons of Love

I am the type of person who puts irrelevant titles to my post so yes hello. Haha. Siguro kasi na-LSS lang ako kanina sa Glee. Haha. Omgggg. 

I feel like sleeping. But no. Because I still have to finish “things.” HIHI ❤ But uh, please do let me tell you a short story of how one call made my day. 

I am just so happy. The end. Hahahahahahahahaha. Hindi naman kasi ako kinikilig.. (yata). Haha. Talagang masaya lang ako, kasi sabi nga sa kanta ni Taylor Swift, “It takes everything in me not to call you.” Tapos… may iba palang nata..OPS. Huhu, it’s not that I’m nagseselos. Ulol, I am :)) Haha, lokohin ko pa sarili ko dito. Kasi I really fought the urge eh. Anywayyy, the good thing is I really am happy tonight kasi nagkausap kami and I waited soooo long to be on the phone with him again and just tell him stories about how my day went kahit mga 5% man lang. And ask him how his days were at kung sino mga nakau..OPS. Haha. Benta nung ops pls. 😦 =)) 

I know, I know. We’ll see each other in 3 days and watch a movie (and hopefully andun pa yung papanoorin ko kasi Wednesday nagpapalit HUHU) and uhh.. probably eat or at least have milktea and tadaaaaaaa (kris kringle chos). Bastaaa. And I can’t be more excited. It’s like a kid waiting for his school bus on his very first day of school. :’) 

Yes, yes. A negative vibe is talking to me right now and making me feel jealous of  uh … stuff and uh.. other stuff and uh.. Pero ito yung feeling kasi na “Oo nagseselos ako pero shet naman kasi miss na kita po” And then I remember The Script’s “If it’s the fighting you remember, all the little things you miss.” Hihi, I’ve got a lot to ask you. And they’re the kind of questions that I want you to answer and answer honestly. And they’re kind of sad questions. No not sad really just not happy. But not sad. Fak. :)) Point is, I’ll ask you when we’re together so I can see you and hear you and feel your presence and react to your answers and if something goes wrong we’ll fix it and not result to one hanging up the phone. HIHI Yay. 

But reallyyy. I miss you. And sometimes I get to the point when it’s the sad kind of miss like I feel soooo sad and just want to cry because we don’t talk and all or you’re probably talking to some..OPS. *haha* But then this kind of miss after talking to you is the kind when one misses someone and just gets too mushy and excited and hyper and just cannot stop thinking of what to do once you see each other again after what, 2 weeks? Haha. Or less. Dibaaaaa. 

There will still be days (and a looooot of days) na magtatampo ako. Maiinis and magsese..OPS. But really. Beyond those feelings naman, you do know how I feel and that hasn’t changed at all. And I’m glaaad. And HIHI >:D<

Siguro minsan naiisip ko pa rin na bakit hindi tayo “pareho.” You know what I mean with this =))

But uhh.. okay na rin siguro. Kasi we both know that I just really am happy when I’m with you. And sometimes that’s enough. But if you do change your mind and see and look and open your eyes to what the sun shines on you, I’ll have my flabby arms wide open. >:D< 

And landi nung last part. Hahahahahahaaahah. 

Gaaad, and again, I am honest. That phone call made my night. Thank you, bestfriend. ❤ ❤ ❤ *heart overload*

“Pag nahohold kita, may problema.” HAHAHAHA HIHI 

PS. If you read this, CUPCAKES KO TENGKSSSSS ❤

November 3.

November 3.

So, uh. Di na kita binati kahapon. Haha, sa Twitter and IG lang. Hindi na sa Facebook. Hindi na dito. Hindi sa Tumblr. (Though gusto ko talaga sa Tumblr kaso andami kong pagmamaarte dun). Haha.

Happy birthday. ♥

Hindi ko na lalandian pa ‘to, dahil may mas maarte pa’kong gagawin. And I really can’t wait to see you. And I just wanted people to know na if they pass by this blog and see this photo, that you really are (one of the) best thing(s) that has ever happened to me.

Ilang beses ko nang sinabi yan.
Iba’t ibang social media. Iba’t ibang paraan.
Pero ‘di naman ako magsasawa. Kasi alam ko namang totoo.

Kaya sana, alam mo rin. Na totoo talaga. *heart*
Happy 18th. ♥