Monthly Archives: October 2013

I’m going to be honest on this. 

3 days pa lang pero parang ang tagal tagal na. Siguro dala na rin na masyadong maraming nangyari. Sa kumuha pa rin ng bag ko, sana magamit mo yung napkin paq.

Nakakaparanoid lang. Kasi.. di ko maisip pano ka babawi. Nakakfrustrate. Kung alam mo lang talaga. Sobrang iniiyak ko na yung frustrations ko kasi ang sakit na baka.. ayun. Na baka tumalmak na lang bigla sa utak ko na mas mahalaga talaga sya kesa sakin. I have these kinds of problems. Funny nga eh. 

Ayun. This is just hard. Soooo, hard. :/

And, walking in Rob never feels the same without you. Sad. 

And… you don’t seem to look for me the way na.. yah okay. Haha. Arayyyers.

I miss you, tho. Kahit sa iba mo sinasabi yan, miss pa rin kita. 

Legshurtmoremorelakadkaninathankssss.

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“Forward ka please, para hindi malaki yung mukha ko.”

Today was full of ups and downs. Not just between the two of us, but also between me and the world. HUHU.

I walked to school. Dropped something off JRS. And I would really like to thank the two kuya’s who were nice and started a conversation that was really fun fun.

Theeen, yun nga. I walked to school (na talaga). And after Pedro Gil, the street I mean, I saw this kuya who was selling Minion balloons. I asked him how much one was, and he told me P20. BINILI KO KAGAD.

And I walked with a big smile on my face. Minion balloon in my hand + Westlife’s When You’re Looking That in my ears + the not so hot weather = thank you :)<

Saw Adi! Played with Adi! She enjoyed my balloon. And a lot of people threatened they'd pop my balloon, and I kinda swore I'd kill them if they did. *wait for it*

Lunch at Pizza Hut. Favorite wingstreet! Yay me! I was too happy about everything. HAHA.

Lalaloopsy hunting – Toys R Us. And the Fluffy Unicorn that I really really sorry-to-use-desperately want. 😥 Huhuu.

Then went back to CAS. Lib. Dapat tutulog si Ken, but Papat came in and said classes were already suspended. Which kind of pissed me off, but yes, better safe nga naman and all.

And I told him the reason why I felt down all of a sudden. It's because of next week. Ahuh. More more tiis.

Called Ma'am + planned + ate.

It was raining. but I had to see Sof and Chich. And it was a nice time to bond with Saab Makkie KV and Anna + Clarvin (for a short time). Yay for us!

ITO NA. When we were still in CAS (kami ni Ken), I was holding my minion balloon and his one hand almost came off, tas narealize ko normal. Okay lang, so I did the same thing to the other had. Ayun pumutok. And I feel bad for myself… hanggang ngayon.

I'm so sorry, minion. 😥

Still, though, I'd like to thank one of the best people I've ever met. :D:D<

Back-reading.

I found the mistake. I found the wrong move. 

It’s back-reading, at 12am onwards. 

It’s back-reading, after a hard situation both of you were in.

Thinking that back-reading would make you feel better because it reminds you of how everything was before, you’re wrong. Definitely. 

Because it will only make you crave for more love than what there is now – if there still is love. 

It will make you see the difference of then and now, and clearly show you the transition of how everything was great and lovely and just wonderful in the first three months and how you fcked everything up so bad that you couldn’t take what “now” is anymore. 

But with your foolish actions of back reading, I hope that you gear up your hopes as well to rekindle the love you were always willing to offer him, even without the demands of it being returned to you – the way it was before, remember.

It will always be hard to see how things have changed. 

And it will always be a mistake to read old messages during late night. It’s like self-torture. Not like, it IS self-torture.  So, try not to do it – especially when all your frustrations and confusions are orbiting your whole thoughts. 

Because at the end of every hard, painful, extremely sad day, you know for yourself that despite the hundreds-thousands-millions reasons to leave, you will look for that one single small reason to fight for what you have, and stay. Stay because you want to be with him, and because he has given you happiness beyond what you thought love can give.

I realized..

It will always hurt to see someone you loved be with someone else.

Whether you’ve really moved on, or just pretended to do so.

Minions on a big TV is love.

Today is a nice day. It’s 11:09. And I have a feeling na kelangan ko nang matulog. But I think today is just worth sharing. 

Nasira internet connection ko kagabi… with the fact na I had to do a lot of things to do thank you so much diba. So natulog ata ako or whatever, tas gumising ng 5+ basta ganon. Tas nabasa ko yung email ni K. ❤ Ahihi. Seryoso sobrang nakakagoodvibes sa umaga hihi.

Nagtapos ng papers sa Anthro thank you so much internet for cooperating this time. 

Pumasok ng mga 8:30.. Hehe. Was with Jenny, jusko pinakita pa nya sakin yung pusa na sumusuka. Haha. Tas wore my gala. Yieee (kahit si LC talaga gagamit). It feels good na kasya pa sya. At amoy cabinet syaaa. Ahihi. Still good. Tas more more practice sa pagnarrate and everything. Nagbonding din kami nung pusa na sooo cute. Hihi. 

Histo 4. Ayun. More more nganga. Nastress ako ng very light. Nahiya ako. Nadale pa kami kay Maam. I’m so sad nowww. Tas yung group nila Makkie na magaling ahihi. Cute cute tas yung mga beauty beauty keme. Ang kapal ng mukha kong sabihin na this is worth posting wiz na wiz naman mga kwento ko. Haha, anyyyy. Ayun nga. Afterrr everythinggg, pinaulit ni Maam yung Philip-Laya-hugot-lines. Jusko tanga tanga ko nalimot ko na script ko kaya more more adlib kanina. hahaa. Keribels naman. Galing pa rin ni Makkie forevsss. Hihi.

Polsciiii. Nagkwento si Luvvv. Omggg, we’re so kilig. Pero yun nga, hindi ako pwedeng kiligin ng bongga kasi baka may maulit nanaman. Haha. Charot lang. Tas nagfreecut na yung iba. E ako more more tampo kay K kasi nagseselos ako. Seryoso masakit kasi di naman ako magaarte arte lang nang wala dibaaa. E dumating si Sirrr. nako dinaan naman kami ni K sa kape at Greenbelt 5. haha. Tas nagdismiss din naman sya ng maaga.

Byyyy 12:30 nasa tambayan kami. More talks. Ganon. More bonding kami ni Cesca na ilang beses nagsorry sakin. Huhu. Andun din sina Richard Paulo and all others. ❤ Ito funny. Haha. Si Jed lagi nya kong iniimaginary punch. Yung akala mo tatama tas matatakot ka tas di tatama. Ganon. This time, tumama. haha. Fakerrrr. yung mata ko plsss. Ang funny nung niyakap ko sya usually pumipiglas, ay wiz magawa kanina kasi hahahaha. Na-Karl sya sorry HAHA. Tas bumili kami ni Ken ng ice cream. Tas more more panggags si Lei at si Chief. Nakoo. Haha. “Ano bang inaaral mo? Di ka naman natututo?” 

More more hard eh. Haha, tas naglunch kami ni K sa robbbb. Pizza hut. Funny kasi same orders talaga lahat. ❤ Hehe. Ganon daw pag ano eh…. Haha, charot. Kain lang. Kwento everywhere about Wednesday night and all. Hihi. And of kahapon dahil anniv nga kemberluuu. Haha. Tas more more chicken sounds. At lahat ng pagkaretarded ko lumabas… lumalabs lang sakanyaaa hihi. 

Tas gumala kamiiiii. Nagpaload. Data Blitz ata. Haha. Omggg. Phones. Macccc. Toys R US!!! omg namiss ko! Yung mga robot robot. tas yung mga nakakalat lang sa sahiggg. Huhu. Yung mga barbie. Ganon. Mga drumset na pambata. Cars. Planes. Basta ang saya ko. Nalimutan ko lang talaga ano yung mga funny! Ay yung Darth Vader pala kasi di nya ko pinapansin huhu. Ayun. Hehe, basta ganon. 

Tas.. ikot. Phones. I confessed why I suddenly felt down. AY OMG Dumaan kami sa mga TV.. tas nakita namin si Adam Younggg sa When Can I See You Again tas sa kabilang TV omg DESPICABLE MEEEEE!!!! Inabangan namin yung minions. Cute cute. “I’m happy you’re happy.” Anekkk ❤

Tas SC. + Seven Eleven more more lambing. Haha. 

C l a s s. 

Watched somethinggg. Cake. Mej bonding kami ni Ernest na macharat. Haha. Yuuunnnn. 

Jeep. 

Ewan ko ba. 

Tas came home to my faveee fried chicken. + Calamansi Juice na gawa ni Mommy + Cronut + more more love. Nakooo. I’m happy… inaantok lang talaga.

huehue. Good night! 🙂