Hashtag Fear

Maybe the thing is I’m just afraid. Afraid to lose you. Or something.

When you have feelings for someone, you don’t ever want to hurt them. But then, because of the fear of losing you, I cling on too hard. And sometimes we’re happy, and sometimes we’re not. 

I just don’t want to wake up someday knowing that you’re tired, and that you’ve grown out of the comfy pillows we’ve lied on, wanting to fly off to space and gather the stars and stay there, never wanting to come back so we’d be together again. Not the together together, just together.

I’m afraid one day I’ll wake up and all that ever comes into my mind are the lyrics from Kamikazee’s Halik. Because that’s going to be painful. And harsh. And I might cry every single time I see you, hear you, remember you.

I just don’t know what to say now. 

My heart is filled with emotions that I have found not a single way to express. 

It’s full of overflowing happiness, and excess sadness.

But I keep it always in mind that we’re happy, because that’s probably all that matters.

I will never grow tired. I will try not to. And I hope you try, too.


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